Think too much

That's my character since I am small kid.

Maybe this is good when dealing in mathematics and business, but if in emotions, or relationships, it simply is a huge stumble block and destructive, which only wrecks me.

This morning I simply thought too much on people and how I will be this and that, which makes me literally unnatural, and everything I do is simply some make up. Frustrated, but, what on earth is THIS?

Sometime this also drives me to near tears. When I wave goodbye, or attempt to chat, or try to talk, or get attention from someone, then he/she does not reply, I will have many many implications in brain already. You guess it, you bet it. It's just so choking my freedom, where some of my brain can be used to others rather than these lamely things.

Just like ths everning. I come back and open my MSN, and see almost all OFFLINE! Maybe you all will think this is normal, but my brain will automatically, without control, starts to think, " What the? Is everyone boycotting me by blocking me, since I am so annoying in chatting?" After praying the rosary in such a bad mood, thnking back, HOW LAME!

For this, I ask my Lord to let me, don't always think too much, as these worldly worries will soon choke the "seed"- the Word of God, in my heart. Hope everyone appreciate me as I am, as well, I appreciate everyone I love as my own friend.

God loves you all, and I do too!